Panic is Setting In

Well, not quite, but my mind is beginning to race as law school looms nearer and nearer in my future (as in one month away). I received my registration materials from Southwestern and, looking at the classes, I actually got excited about studying again. I just hate all the possibilities that are bouncing around in my head -- being on USC's waitlist was just a matter of fact for a while, but now I'm getting panicky, asking pointless questions -- what if I had studied a bit more for the LSAT, what if I took a different test, what if I don't get a good enough job after law school because of that. I'm slipping back into my high school mindset of one minor thing having a snowball effect on my entire life. I don't think I'd be the greatest law student to live, but I do think I deserve a shot at USC and it pisses me off that singular scores and things that I can't control determine my future. I worked so hard at UCLA and I know what I can do. I keep telling myself that wherever I am, I'll be fine -- I'll succeed and be happy, but what if I'm not satisfied, what if the past creates a future I don't want?